...but it's a different version than before. Last school year and this school year are very similar. My kids go to the same schools, the carpools are only slightly different than last year, the big kids have choir on Tuesday and Wednesday, as well as Young Women's and Scouts on Tuesday. I get testy over undone homework and chores, and dismayed that yet again, two weeks into the school year Sarah is sick. Happens every year.
But there are differences. Kendall is home, still looking for work. Meri is gone all day, and she and Pete walk home, not getting here until after 4:15. (They walk slow, but it's over a mile away.) There won't be a visit with Kendall's mother ever again. We had Norman and Elizabeth up to our house last year for Thanksgiving. And she was well enough to actually enjoy it. She ate, and laughed, and talked for a while. I'll be forever grateful for that experience. I still expect her to call me almost every day like she did the past few months of her life, mostly just to talk. My phone rings a lot less these days.
And I know that this limbo state won't last forever. If a new job for Kendall doesn't pop up soon, it'll be "all hands on deck", finding any way to bring in money. And life will look different yet again.
But I guess that is the purpose of life. Not to maintain the status quo, but to see how we react to the upheaval that change brings. I hope that I can be more Christ-like in my reactions to those changes.
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